My Experience In A&E

 

Trigger warning: this post includes discussion about suicide and self-harm

A month ago, I attempted to take my own life. I was rushed to A&E. I was obviously not in the right mindset to be thinking about things but I kept thinking about all the horror stories I’ve heard about people going into A&E for a suicide attempt or just for their mental health.

To be honest, thinking like that obviously did me no good as I was panicking since the moment I stepped into A&E.

I then seen the doctor, they asked questions about what I did, why I did it and would I do it again. All questions I expected to be asked and to answer. What surprised me is how supportive the doctor was, they were so understanding of my situation and why I did it. They explained how it was the wrong thing to do and how they knew how hard it was to not act on thoughts when you are in such a low place.

A few hours later, multiple ECGs and blood tests, I got put into resus. I had to be monitored in case I deteriorated which was pretty much certain to happen because of what I did and how I did it.

Everyone who saw me in resus, the nurses, doctors and everyone, were so nice and supportive. When I was being moved to resus I was scared that everyone would look down on me because of what I did, but nobody did that.

The A&E liaison team asked to see me, we went into a separate room and talked. All of a sudden I wake up in the bed I left to see the team… I didn’t know what was happening, oxygen mask on and I immediately had a panic attack. I got told I had a seizure whilst speaking to the  A&E liaison team. They said it was due to what I did. I was being monitored more than ever and everyone was just as supportive. 

I know there’s a lot of horror stories about going to A&E for something related to your mental health, but everyone’s experience is different.

A month on from what I did, things are getting better. It may be slower than ever, but they are still getting better. Looking back at things, when I first did what I did, I didn’t regret it and wish it worked. Now, I totally regret what I did and I am so happy it didn’t work.

If you are struggling, the Samaritans are free to call at:

  • 116 123 (UK)
  • 116 123 (ROI)

4 thoughts on “My Experience In A&E

  1. I really admire you for speaking openly about the experience that you’ve had – especially so soon afterwards as well! I’m glad that your experience was positive. I’ve been in the same situation, however, I had a very negative experience. I don’t quite have the courage to speak as openly about it as you have here but my goal is to, one day, be able to share my experience with everyone. Despite the circumstances around this post, it was a joy to read due to the positive note throughout. You have a great mindset!
    Kind Regards
    Amy x

  2. I was very glad to read at the end of this post that things are slowly but surely improving for you, Liam! You will get there, you’re so strong and very brave! I couldn’t admire you more for being so candid about your experiences – it sounds like you had a fantastic NHS team to help you that day, they do sound incredibly kind and supportive, taking exactly the right approach! Onwards and upwards for you from here!

    Abbey ❤️

  3. I am so glad that you had a good A&E experience! I am also glad that you have blogged about it openly and honestly too because it is so often that people only talk about their bad experiences and all of that negativity can stop other people from making the decision to ask for help when they need it. Your positivity is really inspiring! xoxo Kate
    PS – I have nominated your blog for a Liebster Award, this is the link to my post about it if you want to participate 🙂 https://thecolourofmadness.com/2018/02/25/feelin-the-liebe/

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